I know. Everyone's gonna call mi too hasty, too fickle-minded, too indecisive, too hesitant. But I. Dun tink have any rights, to deny any of them. Seriously. Yes. As much as i wish not. But yes. Yes i must admit it to myself. Im just simply not even that bit clear of what it is i want. Doing and regret doing it, not doing and regret not doing it. I wonder, when will it stop. See, now im seriously regretting again. I am such an idiot. But it's too late. Arghhhhhhh. I know it's the worst excuse you probably came across. But im just a girl. Is it not alright to not know what is it that i truly want? Is it not alright to have been trying, all the while, to even attempt, to look for something that i might want more? I guess it's not. Not the time, moving on mercilessly with nonchalance. Not out in those societies, definitely not. They, out there, thinks by this age we should all clearly already be more willed and sure of what we want. Indeed, seeing most fellows even juniors, they do they really do. They are just so damn sure. Seriously. But sorry. Im not. Im just so not... My deepest apologies. To them. And to dear poor me myself. Sorry for being stuck with me and those regrets i caused.