Last Winter

Thursday, October 21, 2010
i have nth to say

Fuck. How screwed can recently be?

First ytd it was the bloody kns hell fking damn eng papers and the cb shytty geog paper and a bit disappointing hist paper plus kenna my finger get hit by a flying netball. Like hell yea the eng was FKING SHYTTY. I so damn nearly failed my story-compo and i JUZ passed my freaking compre. Geog was hell shyt, I MINUS DAMN LOT MARKS COZ OF CARELESSNESS, I WROTE SEEDS INSTEAD OF REEDS AND ONE MARK GONE WHEN THAT ONE MARK CAN GET ME AN A2 at least. NO A. NO A! THAT PAPER ONLY OR FOR OVERALL. NO A!! WTF.

Den td, wtf the retarded cb bloody kns heck damn fking MATHS. Like oh-so-amazing i gt like some shyt bloody score and SOO thanks to fucking bloody CARELESS MISTAKES OF LIKE WTFKING NEAR TEN MARKS. I REALLY FEEL LIKE BASHING SOMEONE SOMETHING AND JUST KNOCK MYSELF OUT FOR A MIN. LIKE HELLO. Now my overall is b4. B-FOUR!! FUCK IT. Yes yes cry so wad, the score is thr. And hell yea, my maths nw officially got a bloody freaky retarded kns B-FOUR. MY BLOODY FAULT, YES MY EFFING BLOODY FAULT AT BEING SO BLIND IN THE HEAD AND RETARDED THAT I HAVE TO MAKE SO DAMN MANI CARELESS MISTAKES. WHY. SO MANY WHYS WHY THE FUCK DID I SUDDENLY DECIDED NOT MAKE IT 3SF WHEN I ALWAYS KNEW IT IS SUPPOSED TO BE. WHY THE FUCK DID I WRITE THE SIGN WRONGLY. HOW AM I GONNA ANS EVEN MYSELF THAT. HUH?? B-FOUR. A BLOODY B-FOUR FOR OVERALL! BLOODY B-FOUR! AND JUST ONE MORE FUCKING MARK TO B-THREE. Damn it all. I rly dunno wad to say. Rly. Rly.This is like. Idk...

My chi compre was not bad i wud say. Juz damn the fking chi compo, i JUZ passed and BARELY passed the situational writing. So it pulled the total upon 70% of papers by ONE ENTIRE GRADE. Congratulations to me. This is shyt. This is fking shyt.

And my lit, one more mark to fking A1 and no of coz not, when in circumstances like this i wud nv somehw be able to get another mark so yes no A1. Plus i gt caught by mdm chan for low socks or some shyt so bot another pair. And ltr i went CC wanted to buy one bracelet to find it not thr i bot a ring necklace -which is more ex to be honest- and nw a small piece of the coloring came off alr. Yes, how screwed can i or td be?

I rly dk wad to say. What do u wan me to say when all i can do nw is cry at my maths paper. Ha.
No As in my finals for streaming yr, what can i do? Nth. Nth bt at most cry at it thr isn't anyting else to do. Ha. Hahaha. Honestly i wan to just cry and get it over with but somehow now i can't really even cry -.-

And let mi tell u sth, the whole plc is against me or wad nw huh? I went in maple for the event pq, only gt 1 doll coz i hesitated to take it for dk-wad-reasons. See, it's actually my own fault. AGAIN. What more to say?

Argh. But oh well but leeting's as optimistic as always huh, tts such a gd ting. Tho getting over it is easier said than done, but lets smile for nw. Smile that im alive and well [:

-Kwanhong

"The higher you fly the harder you fall"
And you fall onto your own world, collapse it will, for some time.

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Monday, October 18, 2010
marking days - they ended

So, today is the last day of marking day. Heck i had a good time in front of my com this weekend ha-ha-ha. Was that sarcasm? Not exactly tho, it was indeed pretty fun. Edgy am i suddenly, maybe cause i just read something really accurate about kanda and allen, somehow combination of their attitudes' got me. Yes yes obsessed, i know i know. That's one reason.

Tomorrow we shall be back at the freaking school. Yes right. Marking days are overrrrrr. Back to waking up at about 6 this rest of the week and going sch then. I suppose there are post-exams activities, which i am too lazy to actually find out tho alot ppl put statuses abt it and all. I'd juz find out when i reach sch lol. Oh btw, i somehow managed to dragged it out and not wash my shoes this weekend :D HAHA well, i only wore it for 3 short days in sch o.O But i hvnt ironed my clothes yet. Erm i get a feeling i sound diff in my typing for this post, oh right their attitudes' got me huh. Perhaps that's not really gd, or is it? Eithers, I shall continue.

Tomorrow. One thing i gotta rmb to do is drop by CC. Tell you for wad after i had gone thr tmr lalala. And sadly, today i ate quite some biscuits - damn my so-called diet. So i gotta watch tmr, no lunch no snacks >.> Well at least hopefully. And i wonder if i'd like to get my papers back tmr, will be able to or not is another ting, but perhaps not?

So i fb-ed, mapled some, manga/fic-ed, drama-ed a little today. It's been kinda it for the marking days and weekend. I would say im kinda running out of finding good manga/fics. Oh yes did i add yet. Sat went with kimberly to well gym, not that i did alot of things but just an eye-opener i guess. Never went into one before. But i am getting a little ache over my arms i would say...

Chingay. It was supposed to be a fun thing but it's actually what is getting me jittery and nervous recently after i submitted that weird form. And dragged fel and bei with me HAHA. Reasons being that, for one that is obviously obvious, i can't dance at all and for another it is that the training is like damn many and stretched over a long period of time and for yet another, kimberly went and told me might have to run for 10km. I'd start all those emo-ing again if i got scared or rebellious and pon and people come demanding after me and all... Not the first time, heck it is not even the second time. Haiz, for all i understand i might just have gotten phobia for it since the first time, which might be why i had even gotten it for the second round. Seriously. Which is basically why i am freak nervous abt it. Oh well just gotta wait til nx sat and just observe. It is weird since it does still seem fun to me in a way but it's like... Yes yes guess phobia indeed.

What else? Hm that would be almost abt it i would say. Yulleness still rockkkk, not much comments about KHR at the moment. Oh SB164 raws are out! And i can read em heh, so well i am just waiting for the subbed version coz... er fun? DD26 subbed is taking ages, i guess i'd just go find more raws first. Btw im feeling a little antisocial or wad td so dun rly feel lik chatting w ppl much, not tt i chat all tt lot tho o.o Yeps so yulleness rock~ Bye.

-kwanhong♥

"The notes of your life is either already written or for you to fill in, I wonder which is it"

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Thursday, October 14, 2010
day just after xams

So here i am again. Whee~ Ok sry i get a bad feeling am i getting slightly more bitchy? Or sth. Rights. So wad to expect? At least xams are over! And so, today is slack slack and slack. Woke up earlier than i expected but not all that early too.

Mostly half mapled and half reads from late morning to afternoon i would say. And also no new updates to my fav manga list, expected, onli got like naruto bleach wich i didn't felt like reading. Then evening stopped mapling and did just the latter. Of coz fb included in the late morning time. So... Oh well i juz gonna add im still mangafreakish mood and yulleness rock. HAHA. Okayyyyyyyy.

So anyways, u noe i actually submitted the form for the chingay thing?? Like omg. Kimberly managed to convinced me (after she signed up b4 noticing the theme) ......... And so i submitted the form as well, beh or not. Muz admit partly coz i feel dance is quite interesting tho i muz also admit i. cant. dance. at. all. totally. not that it is sth nice and all. But still, a little jittery here thinking about it, tho, man, did i took a longggggg time deciding to submit it or not. But frankly i am worried the training will be very long and will take sch's time like those chi dancers who went for chingay this yr. Take sch's time sry im not even gonna attempt lol ._."? And den im pretty worried about if i am needed to go for the guides' performance thing for pna pts? Well coz that time say got dance, drums, etc which training is lik nov-dec ask us tell a senior den i smsed her say im interested but asked can i noe if wad sort of dance thr are, only to get no replies from her. It's reasonable to assume that either i smsed her too late (she hv to confirm by dk wad time) or smsed the wrg no. rgt (i got her no. from sb else)? So well basically i submitted for chingay hoping that she really didn't count me in. Else 'd trouble i guess. Oh well... Still, guess gotta 'resume' my diet trial, if it ever worked in the first place.

Alright what else. Oh i need to cut my frinch lers. Yeah... And then now what. Oh well. Dun care next wk nid go back sch muz enjoy e marking days, wich tmr is. HAPPY SLACKING STILL PEOPLE tho i know noone reads[:

-kwanhong♥

"The most difficult phase is not when people don't understand you, it's when you don't understand yourself"

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Wednesday, October 13, 2010
at least xams are over 2010

Well well how've ya been. Xams over...for now.

My maths, this mon, was distraught disastrous and utterly disappointing. What more can i say? I lost like nine to eleven marks already, upon a low 80 no less, which just means my overall score for this paper alone will be. Bloody. And which means my overall score for the yr is gonna be like. Dk wad shyt. Heck it was really disastrous and disappointing. Hoped it not but said it to ppl so mani times like it is already true. Fact or not now, it will be disappointing to no end. And why had i done that at that moment, i had no answer til now.

Hist, my first paper actually, is a little unsettling for there are some ques i felt i wrote albeit too short or wadnot. Dun really noe bt well. Perhaps i chose e wrg ques to do, maybe shud hv did the last one. Beh. Nvm it is overall still ok despite that tinge of unsettling.

Eng, compo which was on the same day as my hist and compre wich was like last wk, was well... Ok lor. Nt all tt much comments on it actually.

Chi, compo was last wk paper 2 was today ha, well. Compo was a little crappy to be honest my problems and suggestions are all like ridiculous that i dun tink can be marked as acceptable. Like, dunno neighbours' name cnt call for help? Ha. That was one despo one, a shytty one at tt -.- And then td's paper 2 was, well, ok? Dun really hv much comments on td one as well.

Still gt wad. Oh geog, well okok lor. 'Cept there are people arguing over whether it is bedok or pulau tekong reservoir. I wrote bedok first, den at the very very last second i go chng to pulau tekong, wads more is i spelt it wrongly- pulau teklong. I seriously tot it was spelt liddat leh! Until i realize its nt :\ So well even if both answers somehow or another are correct i still no mark. Great uh. But if both can't be correct at the same time, well i really still nt sure wich one is e correct ans.

And den... Sci, yeah ytd was sci pp. Hm i would just say paper tt is set is not as hard as i tot but there are quite a few ques idk luh >< So well for tt dun rly hv much comments. Oh wait gt one, e graph rgt, the curve of the curve graph at the bottom i used e curved ruler bt from top to the curve at the bottom i free-handed... Nt enuf time :\ Jah.

ANYWAYS. AT LEAST XAMS ARE OVER. WOOHOO. Its gonna be mangamangamanga and yullenyullenyullen and maplemaple abit :P HEHE. Oh but before u read e nx phra, juz to tell ya its gonna be my mangafreak mode so can skip it if u hv no interest~

I muz add dgm200 was a rocker!!!!!!!!!!!! ROCkk awesome rollercoaster like hw dgm always is and thr's like hintsss of yullen yayness. A canon boost for my support for yullen perhaps? HAHA. Kanda called allen allen and he SMILED!! Bt only tt he ltr ran away w alma into e ark >.> I take that tt didnt happen for my yullen craze, of coz will take tt it happened when i read e manga coz it connects wad happens nx ma. BATTLE GG BEGIN LUH, allen and the noah bunch! HEHE. Btw in the middle of the chpt when i saw kanda lik killed i was like thinking "omg kanda dies i'd consider seriously dropping dgm'. LOOOOL. Obsession? -.- Actually nw not quite liao, thr was a short time i was lik erm v more obsessed? HAHA. K larrrs. Hm. KHR chpts recently nt v...powered? Not tt exciting leh. Idk, maybe not tsuna's turn yet but feel some parts a lil draggy. Or mayb i dun rly like that ryohei that much. And den SB164 still hvnt out... maybe a couple of wks more? Well quite anticipating it muaha, gg be interesting i guess. DD26 subbed still nt out, gonna w8 abit coz e subbs r rather slow compared to e raws wich idk hw read, e raws out til 32 or 33 liao o.o And think im gg to take down TO-TheOne from my list, i dun mind waiting long for a chpt bt recently e chpts r nt tt v worth e w8 tt can be longer dan dgm when the chpts arent haf as progressive and exciting as it.

OK OK OK OK OK OK OK. pAuSe. Tmr, fri, mon are... MARKING DAYS! Woohoo! Hehehe. Dunnid go sch :P Btw i went to yishun lib after sch td to find bk on ,preferably she diao ying xiong zhuan, or shen diao xia lv but too bad dun hv leh. Den feli er gang hao? say she reaching yishun so met up~ Yeaaaa den bot e tapioca ting - wich is nt all tt nice actualli - den take bus home. Oh at first tot my cpu cnt work agn leh, den pluck out n put bak cables (after suggestn of a repairman) den so far can use. And u noe! Anime cosplay festival is out during nov n im tempted to go suntec to hv a look bt a lil lazy u noe. Saw it from a mag i bot on an impulse of the cover pg abt harry potter movie lOL. Lalalalalalalaa. Okkkkkk. At least xams are over. HAPPY SLACKING PEOPLE. tho i bet no one reads[: End.

-kwanhong♥

"it's better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all" ?

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